caylabne moments

finally got to go on a trip again with my relatives at caylabne bay resort somewhere in cavite. quite nice, id say. although the lack of girls my age was very disapointing.

If you look at the picture beside this text, you'll see me visibly shaken by the lack of female hotties in skimpy bikinis. hehe. but of course im just joking. im not into that stuff and besides my time at the beach was mostly spent on thinking...thinking about her...

the resort itself was not that bad. but quite expensive. p6000 a day my auntie said and we stayed there for 3 days/2 nights. there's a beach full of spiky rocks with artificial white sand in the shores. besides it are 2 swimming pools where we spent most of our swimming time because of the aforementioned rocks in the beach.

i wish that my friends were there with me because I was really sad. no one seems to notice it..even my friends are casual about it..but deep inside of me im really devastated..devastated from something that i was expecting...well even though i expected it it still hurt..but enough of that..

we did saw a filipino celebrity, cherry pie-picache, while I was writing my name in kanji (above) and looking at the sad sky (above also).

i comforted myself by thinking of things that could have been..things that may never be..although i still hope..as against my friend's wishes that i abandon my useless plight. love is love i guess and my heart knows better in this instance.

still quite happy though. i just hope she finds who she's looking for. i still trust no one other than myself for the job though. no one. well who am I to decide on the matter? just a silly japanese boy deprived of usual life's graces but still very fortunate. look at me above, im happy, right?

i hope we go to a resort again..somewhere remote.away from civilization...with my friends...so that I can hope once again that while im sitting on the sand, someone is right there beside me...wishful thinking? well nothing wrong in wishing.