Don't know what to do...

there's a song that goes something like:
Please forgive me I know not what I do...
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you...
Don't deny me This pain I'm going through...
Please forgive me If I need ya like I do...
Please believe me for what I say is true...
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you...

The message that this song signifies to me is of tremendous importance.

For someone like me who has confidence the size of the moon (not arrogant, though), failing to muster up enough courage to do even the simplest things is frustating. I just do not know what I should do.

If you know the outcome would be negative, would you still take the risk?
If you have so much to gain and so much to lose also in a single move, would you still take the chance?
If your heart tells you something which your mind contradicts, which will you follow?
If someone you love is someone who hates your guts, what recourse can you possibly take?
If the distance of earthly being between two persons is as heaven and earth, can harmony exist?
If defeat is as sure as the sun rises to the east, would you blindly engage into action?

Questions like these are what has been bombarding me for this past few days...should I act?or should I just plain concede? After all, I know the outcome...but still...what if? What if by some sort of miracle I have even the slightest bit of chance?

Well it doesnt really matter what my chances are. I know what I feel and let no man tell me otherwise. If defeat is what I deserve, then let me be defeated.

I'd rather go the way of the loser than go the way of someone who failed to take a brave stance for something so dear to him. I will spring into action, ignorant of the expected result, just so I can confess...just so I can express......just so I will not look back to this time when I've become older, thinking: "What if I took the chance?"

I risk everything so that I may gain everything. My future depends on this, I wish myself all the luck in the world. After all, Im going to need all the luck I can get...

Anato no koto wa suki desu...ya chigau...suki janai...aishitemasu...totemo aishitemasu...kore wa honto no koto desu..uso wa arimasen..komata mono desu ne kono inochi wa...